Pitchers of Silence...

Sat, 15 Jul 2006 01:06:52 GMT

This was rather long overdue...

Take Me To Your Leader

Fri, 02 Jun 2006 04:50:15 GMT

ATTN:
You are all welcome to attend my graduation open house
Saturday JUNE 10th from 5-8PM @ my house
PLEASE COME :)

(it's the day before i leave for puerto rico!!!!)

ohhh high school... it'll all be over tomorrow... (graduation ceremony starts @ 7:00PM ? i think??)
these past few days without school have been so much fun from the cabin and tubing.....gross vodka....the burb....the drive-in...dance parties....Koontang's house(my space guys...., Cooper-boys, tiki lamps/shisha...
i just hope once i start work next week (and as everyone else starts work...)i'll still be able to make as many plans with ppl before i leave for europe...
i hope everyone has a wonderful summer and if i haven't seen/hung out with you yet.... call me please!!!

Question

Fri, 05 May 2006 04:26:16 GMT

**When do one's parents know what is best and when does one know what is best for oneself?

on a totally different note... i'm missing all of school tom. (well... i guess i've really missed this whole week anyway....)
and at work a nice asian guy who always comes in for some reason felt the need to buy me liquor on the spot (how conveniently located the sta liquor store is...) he literally saw me... ran in... ran out and came back with a bag for me--i barely said hello how are you... i guess he knew i was having a rough day [not like i need to drink away problems...] and [NO he is not a creepy old man... i think he is 25?? and he is good friends with one of the girls i work with....] anywhoo...
it was a rather nice gesture for a sort of shitty week

--there is an imogen heap concert coming up REAL fast and when i went to get tickets awhile ago they were sold out... but there are some for sale at the booth before the concert... i'm really excited to stake out and go! [greta and i are going... but if anyone else is going/wants to let me know!]

nighttttt

One Thing I Don't Need

Wed, 03 May 2006 23:59:20 GMT

Ok... it's not the biggest problem... but then again it's kind of a BIG problem.....
I have been accepted to Carlson Business School @ the U
my dad is VERY KEEN on the idea of me going there
my mom is also VERY EXCITED about the idea of me attending there
+if i went there I wouldn't have to take out loans--well the first year--according to my parents... (ummm great? honestly at this point... i don't give a fuck if i have to take them out or not...)
+my dad said he would buy me an ipod and labtop if i went there (great.. bribes....)
+the dorms @ carlson have already been filled up... but my dad looked into apartments n stuff that carlson students use near the school.... (fuck)
noowww.... i thought i had already made the decision to go to Franklin in Switzlerand.... it is a TAD more expensive to go there.. yess if i do go there all 4 years i'll have a shit load of loans even with my scholarships... yess it isn't the MOST RIGOROUS school... but the more i've thought about it.... that isn't as important to me now....
i want to go around and see different places in the world... i don't want to go to school just because ppl think it's a really good school.... I want to experience different things and... even if I don't do well at Franklin (speaking more from a emotional and fitting in standpoint than grades or schoolwise) i still want to go .... because i'm really CURIOUS about what kind memories and stuff that school has to offer.... even if it was only for a year, i'd still like to go
well my parents don't really understand where i'm coming from and say that "you don't have your mind made up yet.. you don't know what you really want" ohhh yeahh... my bad i forgot i can't really make decisions.....
i know i have trouble making decisions... but i think this is one thing i need to do.... to kind of get away from them and figure out what i really like and want to be doing....i think if i go to carlson it'll be just adding another thing to the list that is "good for me" and what they want me to do.... it wouldnt' be putting me in a bad direction but i think i would finish in a place where i wasn't as satisfied with myself as they could or will be for me... and i just don't think that that is fair....
both myparents have done mostly what both their parents told them to do... and look where they are... not to say that it's bad... but i don't want to be like them at all... and.... and... ......
but what if i'm wrong and i'm just going to franklin because i want to get as far away from them as possible and i'm not considering everythign rationally like they think.... so if i did want to come back i would have too much pride errr i'd be too nervous to admit that i didn't like it there and i would absolutetly HATE to hear "I TOLD YOU SO"......
does anyone have any opinions or advice??? (that is if you can decipher all the mumblings and ramblings on...)
it would be GREATLY appreciated :)

Bleep Bleep Bleep

Sun, 26 Mar 2006 18:05:00 GMT

Soo.... I've done some thinking.... well a lot of thinking and it's come down to this:
-Franklin gave me the most $$ out of any school I applied to
[well.. it is also the most expensive school i applied too...well a tad shy of Gustavus]
-They will also give me a free lab top to keep
-One free roundtrip
-Just because I go there doesn't mean I have to go there all 4 years...
-I will either have my own apartment there or I will share it with 1-3 other people [they don't have dorms]

bottome line:
*I am going to go to Switzerland next year and then most likely come back here for 3 years....
[or]
*I am going to go to Switzerland for 2 years and come back here for 2 years.....

i think i can at least pay for the first year... and possibly-maybe-hopefully the 2nd year without taking out big loans or loans at all... which will/would/could be nice

[i don't think i can really afford to go there all 4 years... + since i can't just get up and visit the campus... i could really hate it when i get there or something or the people could just be really weird errr i dunno]

one hard part that i haven't given much thought about is... going about applying to schools next year while i'm at Franklin or the year after[which schools do i apply to next year/year after?]...but i don't know if i really have to think about that now

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH---- i'm excited... but sad.... i'm gonna miss people... well i guess it's only a year [err.. 2 or err i dunno!]... but.... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

So That's a Firehole...

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 03:23:04 GMT

*looks like my mom is leaving this Thursday.....she's gone for two+ weeks... [south america]i hope everything works out
*my spring break is next week
WOOOOOOOOO!!! of course i'm not going to mexico, or texas or puerto rico or anywhere really special.... but i will basically have the house to myself....so hopefully there'll be some fun stuff going on ;-)
*i still don't know what i'm doing next year = perfect

there are so many good movies i need to see right now!
one in particular: Tsotsi
and i can't wait to go to the omnifest!

luvluv

What?

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 05:01:59 GMT

Ok.. how the hell do you get the link in the middle of my last update to go away?
don't click the words! it isn't anything interesting....just sends you to photo bucket.....

woops

Look What the Cat Dragged In

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 04:45:41 GMT

Last week: BLAHH
My feelings:
when do we stop wanting to be something and someone we obviously aren't and when do we find out how to appreciate what we have and know what we are actually good at?
god... maybe i'll feel at least a little better about myself mid-March

This week: Better [Will] be better than the last...

-My scholarship to Gustavus got bumped up... so the 25th i'm going for an interview n such during the day and then hopefully i'll get to see

for a bit before i have to come back that evening
[the 25th is also snodaze [Sno Dazed and Confused]--Ed Lutz asked me tonight!]
looks like there'll be some fun afterwards :)

-Franklin is still going over scholarship stuff-- i know i qualify for some stuff but.... will it be enough? [most likely not]-- i mean yes... maybe i'm exceptional in their eyes... i loved what the alumni i talked to from new york had to say about her experience.. it was a lot like i had pictured it would be, i was i had the opportunity to visit it though--what if i just think i like it so much because it's SO much different than all my other options...what if i'm falsely attracted to it...
why does MONEY matter SO MUCH?

-Then there's the U.... did i get into Carlson? [i don't need a letter back... it's gonna be NO]
am i all about going to the liberal arts school??

-Forget about the other two i applied to... fuck-- i believe i didn't apply to as many schools as i should have.. oh well

I miss these three--quite the combination

and the times they bring

where the hell are these two?

-After basketball is over... i am getting my bellybutton and tragus repierced [i let them close during basketball and volleyball... the tragus was hard to have b/c i was too lazy to keep taking it in and out... and i want my belly button pierced slightly higher...]

-[random] but i saw the cutest fucking pupppy ever.... god if i could get one .... every year i ask for a puppy... or a pet... i can't wait until i live on my own....

--oh yess-- looks like i can't afford a spring break--but traveling to Puerto Rico in June is a GO!
-- i have it paid for
-- tickets purchased
-- 1 weeks stay
-- how i love the sun <3

Do i have a graduation party? YES NO

Perfect, and now i have too much hmk to handle at the moment...and i may have blabbed for a bit too long
night everyone
<3 <3 <3

School--WHAT?

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 19:31:33 GMT

You scored as Sociology. You should be a Sociology major!

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Here It Comes...

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 21:25:01 GMT

Well tommorrow at 8:15 i'll be ready to go for surgery
The inside of my nose will be fixed and i'll have a cast on it for a week
I'm kinda nervous cuz i'll be under but hopefully it doesn't hurt too bad when i wake up

I wont be in school tomorrow or wed....

we'll see how it goes

<3
sophia

Yep...It's A TRUE fact..

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 18:52:49 GMT

A BITCH broke my NOSE yesterday at our first basketball game....i went to the emergency at about 10/11 and didn't see a doctor until 2:30AM.... they basically said that i just have to let it heal like it is... hope it straightens out on its own and can't play basketball until i see an ENT/it heals
GREAT
so i waited a long time for just about nothing...
GREAT
so i might not play for about 2 weeks
GREAT
although...i'm on vicaden(sp?)now... which is kind of nice
and i got to miss school today.. another plus i suppose

Break went really well though... which only makes me more excited for winter break to come :)

I really should have taken more pictures...

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 22:10:38 GMT

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Deep Down You Know It's Gotta Hurt

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 04:33:30 GMT

Happy Halloween Bitches!!!

A Few Hallows-pictures ta come

oh yes :)

BitterSweet Love

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 04:19:35 GMT

Costume Party!
-Wearing a toga
-Going to the bathroom
-taking off the toga before peeing
-Cell Phone in the back pocket
-toliet bowl is glowing
-FUCK!
One dead cell phone

For anyone who tried to reach me after Fri night sometime... my cell phone stopped working.... sorry! but the good news is i will be getting a new one this wknd :)

Coming home today--i realized all at one moment i was perfectly happy and at the same time i was really in the same position i was in before i left home.... there are so many decisions i feel like i have to make at the moment... i don't know whether i want to live in the moment or think ahead to the future...a good combination of the two would be nice but it is easier said than done

fuck yes i will be a skanky bat girl for halloween woo!! :)
this is gonna be a long week...

For The Hell Of It...

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 03:51:40 GMT

+ I don't get calc! When i think i do..a second later i have no idea what to do!
+ I'm going up to Mankato next friday!
+ Sat/Sun I'll be going up to UMD!
+ Tonight was parent's night--we won (by ALOT)
+ Tomorrow we play B.C. (who've we already beat...) and when we win... we'll be conference champs!
+ My lit paper sucks....
+ I can't go to Sadies :-( [i was really looking forward to it because i was going to dress up like a cowgirl and have the guy be a cowboy and he'd have a lasso, boots, cowboy hat n everything....damn) oh well, instead i have to go to Jamestown and Wartburg for scholarship interviews?? ick-- i didn't even plan on attending either...now i'm stuck going to these things....
+ Our cruise ideas for spring break 06 are Mexico/Hawaii/Caribbean/Bermuda? or "Exotic" Caribbean... whatever that is... where should we go?? ok so basically every place out there... we need to narrow it down a tad....
+ i didn't go over my cell bill!
+ oh yes--turning 18 had its perks--the celebration was not exactly how i had it planned... but it was still a success-- with stuff left over!

*end of useless update*

hrmm i think i should put up pictures soon :-)
<3
night all

The Crank

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 21:15:36 GMT

Today may have been another ordinary day, except for the fact i turned 18
:)
this weekend will be a good one
a party or two
the hooka bar
and of course a random runin mix of things

too bad there aren't that many ppl around here who are 18 as well! damn those spring babies...

call me if you'd like ta join in on the activities set above!

<3

Sleepy-poo

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 03:49:51 GMT

Winning never felt so good---i'm so happy we got first in our tournament... it really picked up my week--it had been rather shitty

t-minus a bit before my mom leaves for South America for awhile if she can find the funds--which i bet/hope she will :) that means = house to myself basicallly cuz the dad's a workaholic and is never home and the brother is quiet and we stay out of each others businazzzz

i am coming down with a cold... my head is banging... boo!

i guess i am still confused about a few things, my head is swimming with ideas it shouldn't be and i know it all comes down to communication/wants and needs.....

basically that's all for my update tonight...
also to all those out in the college life: you lucky bastards--i know you are having fun!! :) (for those of you who aren't... i wish you the best of luck and hope things turn out alright!)

sweet dreams all

Tears of Joy and SUCH

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 22:35:05 GMT

I have been working on college applications n stuff for it since like 9 this morning until about 3--my mom is going insane.. i have not been let out of the house today except for a 30 min "free" time to go to target to pick up some school stuff with Caitlin

I feel exhausted... but i guess at least i only have to get transcripts and recommendations and do one tiny personal statement... other then that i guess i can start sending em in when i need to... ahhh

more importantly... well i guess in the grand scheme of things and according to alot of other ppl it is not so important...
i experienced my first tears of joy... literally.. tears of joy... i mean they were mixed with some sad tears... but... for the most part.. i don't think that it was like that, i was just so happy... and all of a sudden my eyes started to water... but i didn't feel hurt.. just SO happy

:-)

i guess my exhausted "mood" feels like a mixtured of exhausted and loved

<3

CLOSE SHAVE, FEELING BLESSED

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 19:22:42 GMT

I can't go into details because i'm too shocked at how something like this happened when it did!--since most of you live in sta you will probably know soon enough at one point or another.., i can't believe i got off... :) it turned out to be one of the best presents i could get! i can't imagine if i had gotten into trouble... bitch please...actually i can = death

as for those who got into trouble, i feel terrible... i hope everything goes alright in the end

--i still need to go to the state fair...
--i didn't get to say good bye to a lot of ppl that have already left
--can't wait for SPRING BREAK 2006!!!

ummm first vball game of the season tonight @ De

wish us luck!

<3

A Midsummer "Nights" Rant

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 01:10:37 GMT

why would i have blind rage toward someone i have never met?? i mean i guess that is sort of the meaning of blind rage... ugh we just had a basketball meeting in the new gym tonight--so weird with the few ppl i have ever gotten to play with for the longest amount of time ever (4 yrs) having them totally out of the picture is kinda scary... because... i didn't really feel that comfortable talking to anybody that was at the meeting... oh hell--and the new coach, let's say she is a woman... i guess she knows her stuff--and i hate to admit it but... i'm scared as fuck--i know the coach we have had wasn't great-- i know i haven't really had a coach for very long anyway, but what i have had was a series of plays and ways things have been done for a long time--it probably doesn't mean much to the younger players... they can't remember last years stuff anyway... but i was looking forward to knowing things well... not solidly but just well... some sort of comfort zone....i know it's better to have a different coach... but it seems like so much to relearn... a rookie all over again and no chance to be return member, but then again what the hell it't just hs anyway... doesn't mean shit
i don't know why i am making such a big deal over this and i'm sure to any other person reading this it doesn't seem like there is much to stress over either... but... fuck... fuck. fuck!

oh well time to get over that and get ready to enjoy a night at the cheap theater and whatever else follows

p.s. greta i was so happy to see my name in your entry! lol well i work tomorrow (thursday) 3-close... umm... i wonder when we will get together... mercado central? sounds like a plan :)

<3

Hullo Luv

Sat, 16 Jul 2005 21:12:52 GMT

ehh work soon @ 5, i went on a picnic today with my mom and brother (who apparently has strep throat) we had sushi, cherries, toasted bread, and chips mmmh (good call by me)

for his bday after going out to eat

<3
ya dearies

Turn on the telly full fuckin blast

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 15:53:35 GMT

Just getting up--

Yesterday i found out some rather exciting news-- 1) i have enough frequent flyer miles so i can fly anywhere in the US (i believe round trip) free!! yahhh, 2) there is a HUGE possibility it will be Hawaii in Dec and 3) there might be some kind of college visit and the University of Hilo (during or and second visit earlier!)
:)

Let's see from a phenomonal sized fiasco that happened about 2 weeks ago, my mom and i are on somewhat good terms (and by good terms i mean we can be in the same room together and not have other ppl leave) now which makes me slightly relieved but the waters are still testy

Going to the Rhymesayers concert the 22nd! (yes i know there is pats..... but... the tickets were snagged almost 1 month ago...)

Work has been about the same lately, it'd be nice to get paid a little more, but at the same time i won't complain

there are a few things i'd still like to do this summer that i'm worried i won't get a chance to do because the time is speeding up and because sometime between now and mid-aug i have to step it up as senior captain for volleyball and put on that i know somewhat what i'm doing and lead a bunch of girls around--i guess i'll have to make calling margi on the list too....
+drive in movie
+chicago
+camp out (even for a night)
+late night sleep over playing fifa (hahahhahah---if you really know me... you know that's a joke(i can't play fifa)... right?)
+sushi bar hop
+paddle boat around

emmmm whateves
call me yo!

Summer Summer Summer Part I

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 05:52:54 GMT

a few random things....
that storm today... waaa

work, basketball, pats. [we leave in about a week], friends... this summer has gone by so fast already, parents=couldn't be more nazi then ever... but thanks to a few texts, a few ppl, & some music it's making it livable

<3

Gasolina!!!!

Fri, 03 Jun 2005 04:08:05 GMT

oh i just had to update for the sake of saying that i turned on my "aol radio" for the 2nd time, and what's playing under
REGGAETON= Gasolina!!!

hahah.... good times, as if i haven't stated it a million times, how i miss those times, and can't wait for school to be completely over!!

i <3 reggaeton..... how i miss those damn dance offs and motherfucking get togethers....

night

Not great--but it's a start...

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 20:16:33 GMT

Thanks to a late night call before I went to bed J ----even though nothing of what was truly on my mind was spoken of, it made me think that, it really can't be as bad as it is, and even if it is...it makes me all that much better for surviving it... [hahah...], to be missed and to know someone cares makes me happy
completing almost all my assignments and tests is a huge relief, even though I know I didn't do that well, and I should have maybe looked over the stuff we spent all year learning, I just don't care, it's over and done with, i worked hard on all my projects and that was all i really cared about doing anyway,
+i have one presentation tomorrow,
+heading to the mall/uptown to possibly snag some deals
+a tennis match [kuhar, nick, vs. me and possibly c-schobes]--haha.. Cuz I am SO good at it
+graduation [playin in the band--oh band....] where I plan to take a million pics!!!
+ and I DO NOT WORK!!!
+I switched shifts sat so I work 4-close, I’m looking forward to a nice [NOT STRESSFUL] wknd

I think I will post some pics soon…..